Simply Love

a lot of learning has taken place the last few days. life lessons about patience, humility, dealing with anger and disappointment, showing love when i want to scream, being there for someone without judgement and just listening. i definitely have not aced these lessons, but am studying hard and can only hope to do better next time :)

a coping mechanism that i have is to remain numb. that's how i deal. you might deal differently or not agree with me, but right now it's how i'm dealing. the last few days a wall has come down and i have allowed myself to feel. i haven't had much sleep and the tears haven't stopped. but along with that comes a loss of control. i can't get my brain to shut off-about the things that i shouldn't be focused on, and turn on-for the things i do need to be thinking about. everything seems to be a blur. it's one of those times where i feel like i've stumbled. and i'm working on getting myself back up and and brushing myself off.