there was going to be a party

no plans had been made, but the ideas were running through my head.  i was going to have a party to celebrate 10 years cancer-free. this july would have marked the 10 year anniversary of cody's initial diagnosis. but this past Thursday, the thoughts of planning a party changed into a whirlwind of emotions that came flooding back.

cody's mri this time around showed changes from previous scans.  when the dr. let us look at the images on the computer, we weren't able to see any "tumor" per say, but there is new swelling in the brain. it's in the same location as before. given his history, the swelling is likely caused by new tumor growth. his oncologist did not feel comfortable waiting another 3 months and repeating an mri to look for continued changes. he felt the only way to have 100% certainty, is through a biopsy.

when we checked out after his appointment, his after visit summary stated: "consult to rochester for possible recurrent brain tumor."  cody's response: "well that was a kick in the nuts."

so that's what we're waiting on now. mayo clinic contacted sanford with requests of cody's previous scans and medical records. the nurse said to give them 4-7 days before we hear from them.

of course the waiting is the hardest part.

shit just got real tonight when cody wanted to talk about it. if you know cody, you know he's not much into talking. about anything. but he asked me if i'm praying for him (of course, all the time) and he asked me if i think about it much (again, all the time). but for him, things are very different this time around for 3 reasons...